Sunday, November 19, 2006
yesterday svc was gd, blessings of God, taking responsibilities of your life, ultimate security etc etc..it impacted me deeply. especially on the ultimate security. perhaps i really doesnt have that in the past, and hope to attain it in the coming days.
even though, svc was great, but i still feel angry?frustrated?weird? (duno how to describe)..jus uncomfortable feeling about myself.. i realise smthg, ppl in the cg has a very wrong impression of me.. i maybe one in the past, i maybe one in ur mind, but i am sure i am not one right now... how to put to words..the feeling was jus pure uncomfortable and irritating? oh well.. wad is over is over.. let those have ears hear..let those have eyes see.. i know the fact that a person's impression in one's mind is set in the first few minutes of conversation, but why are ppl limiting that to their mind? can't a person change? ...oh perhaps i am reaping what i have sown? like one of my fellow members always says (shall not disclose names again) "What you sow, you shall reap!" but she meant it the other way, not the good stuff i have sown..sounds like retribution or smthg...well oh well..thats life indeed. i suppose changing ppl's impression is just too hard...i am beginning to feel tired...am i suppose to fight against principalities and powers? hah..
5:15:00 pm; noMUSIC ; noLIFEU
